Today I had Two hours with my son at an access center in surbiton. Two hours a fortnight, after nearly two years of separation is not much…but it is better than nothing. Jacks mother is still unable to be on time, but at least I can rely on her inconsistency..I remain …the same…Last weekend I went out with an ex- Lara and her two kids. A lovely, un complicated time. it made me very aware of the things lacking in my previous life with Jacks mum.

Still Sober..The flat is coming on..I AM HAPPY.