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Stop cancer my arse….

Are you a Dirty-Gene or a clene-gene, if you carry the gene for cancer, you could save 2 dollars a month by not having children and thereby avoid having to be blackmailed by Cancer-Uk…

When I was a child…

When I was a child, I was speaking as a child, I was led as a child, I was thinking as a child, but when I became a man, I ceased these childish things. 1 Corinthians 13:11


For 3 years I have been on a RELAPSE, of epic proportions. Overcome by anger, hatred, loathing, despite and fear, slandered, beaten and abused, I sought refuge in  old patterns of behaviour. Assailed by haters and liars, I became everything they wanted the world to perceive me as -almost-.

This time has passed away and now I will show them the me they hate and fear. The powerful me, the compassionate me, the strong man!

I will become as the phoenix… Reborn from the ashes of my old life…

So let it be written. So let it be done!

I love and miss my son…


 I have never been as proud of anything as I am as of you….

“You Needed Me”

I cried a tear, you wiped it dry
I was confused, you cleared my mind
I sold my soul, you bought it back for me
And held me up and gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me

You gave me strength to stand alone again
To face the world out on my own again
You put me high upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me, you needed me

And I can’t believe it’s you I can’t believe it’s true
I needed you and you were there
And I’ll never leave, why should I leave, I’d be a fool
‘Cause I finally found someone who really cares

You held my hand when it was cold
When I was lost, you took me home
You gave me hope when I was at the end
And turned my lies back into truth again
You even called me friend

You gave me strength to stand alone again
To face the world out on my own again
You put me high upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me, you needed me
You needed me, you needed me

Free Gaza.


As a man who has been physically and emotionally abused, lied about to remove my access to refuge and denied access to my child as a punishment for leaving, I am surprised more men don’t speak out. Some women use a man’s abhorrence of violence-against-women as a weapon of terror. I know!

Fuck ‘em…..

Me and Bessie Head..

She was born in an asylum, I was abandoned in a convent. She was a mixed race child in south africa, I was the child of an under-age irish mother, left in a convent in Wimbledon.
She knew nothing about her past or her family and neither do I. She had a son, the only human connection she had and an inherited mental illness, coupled with alcoholism that ate her up. Me too..
She displayed all the signs of the psychotic ( we are charming and able to form short relationships, but become dis-associative when offended) however she was blessed with people who tried to understand her nature and her pain.. And I was left with white people…

When I look back over the 20 years I was homeless, it is the people who could least afford to help and support me, that did. The people who could most afford to help me – with 2 exceptions; meg lewis and john jones- didn’t..

It was the London underclass who raised me from destitution and homelessness, it is this class that continue to provide a sense of community. No matter how hard I worked to tend the friendships in my garden, people either took advantage or thought me to be ‘after something’..

Only the poor know how to share…


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